It frustrates me that I am behind my "life" timeline. So many things were supposed to happen. Like:
-graduate at 22 (I'm 23 now, and will officially graduate after I turn 24)
-get some awesome job that pays me more than high school days
-not just any job, a coordinator job!
-not just any coordinator job, my dream job!
And because I am behind, my salary/$$ is behind, which then affects the dreams of my car, house, family, children. If I could do this again, I would. I would've just stayed in town and stuck to a job. Now I'm behind. I wasn't able to find one during college because of my schedule. But now that I'm back home and doing online classes for my final semester, it's so easy. I could've done this for the past 5 years.
And because I feel like I am behind, I don't want to start. I feel like it'll always be too late. I feel like I'll never get there. But what I've learned over time is that all you've got is time. It does me nothing to whine for the next 2 years that I'm 2 years behind. At this point of my life, I need to stay positive. I need to keep moving (I really just wanna whine though). Just had to write this down, so my mind can rest and I can finally sleep without this.
I've also realized how heartless I've become. I just want to work, work, work.
...Which brings me to think about people who do not work. They seriously have too much time to shop, invest in shit, and do hospital visits. I've been doing full time and it made me realized how much I want to work for schools because I would like my summers, winters, and holidays off! I like doing random things/jobs during my free time. It's like a break. I like it. But with this full time job at the CU, it scares me because I will be there forever until I chose to end it. I don't wanna quit to get more vacation time or have to "request" off for only 1 week of vacation. I love having 3 whole months off and doing part time. I can do other things that I really want to.
Super random: I've been doing house searches and my family should move out! We should just get a house in Wausau because we are always there! Both my mom & I work on the west side of Wausau. My dad is constantly running errands over there. There are more restaurant choices there. I hate taking the highway to work and WalMart. Our house is way too big. It was a cool idea, but I don't like it anymore. When I buy a house in the future, I'm not going to get one as big, with less and flat lawn to mow. Do we seriously need all that backyard space? My family never goes in our backyard, and also because it's a hill. It's not flat to sit/hang.
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